Where do I start?
A mind of brick, a body with less heart.
On the ground I crawl eating crumbs as they fall.
A soul lost in darkness and fog,
Empty minded and welts from tears.
Choked by hate and living in fear.
Bruised ego, I have become a mockery.
Like shit is how you talk to me!
Me, the girl who gives without limitations.
You talk to others with your lips planted on their asses, then speak to me with their shit still present!
You do not make me!!
No matter how many times you try to break me!
My spirit is damaged, but my strength is not of words or banks.
My strength is of character.
What goes around always comes back and shows its face.
When you face your fate my presence will no longer help you sustain.
No more point and blame,
No more deceit.
Resilience has taken pains place firmly planting my feet.
It is now time for me to leave.
Good riddance to those who still crawl in defeat.
What is life?!
Life is watching the sun rise out of the ocean,
Feeling the wind kiss your face, and watching dandelions petals race.
Life is beautiful in some ways.
At least that’s what Hollywood say.
Me? What is my life?
Breathing in city smoke,
Drinking poison until i choke
Smelling old grease burning thin.
Bubble gum under bus seats and bitter tobacco flavored breath with just a hint of cheap coffee left.
Traveling into my nostrils and turning my stomach inside out.
Fake smiles and false truths,
“I’m fine…” The biggest told lie in all generations of fools.
Praying and hoping you’ll survive.
Making promises that seem to have deadlines and
Erasing love until hate and crazy subsides.
A beach with no sand.
Tea with no sugar,
A pool without water,
A singer without a band,
A bible with no God,
Sex with no passion,
A hot factory with no fan.
Radio without music
Earth with no land.
They say I over think,
I say they don’t think enough.
You would be surprised what others say when your back is turned, even more surprised when they know you’re listening, its all the same.
People only value what you can do for them.
If you are of no use it is then you become nothing to their world, but a spun joke, exaggerated lie, and a punching bag to release their anger.
What goes around comes around, karma has a way of shaking up the petty minded fools who belittle and ridicule your acts kindness.
It all goes without saying you never know what a person truly thinks of you.
Their actions will always reveal what’s hidden though.
Those who step on you to reach higher ground will always learn the hard way.
Lesson being, the same way up is the same way down.
Be careful how you treat those who have seemingly fallen asleep in their destiny.
Because when they awaken, you’ll forever watch them live their dream.
Talk behind another persons back and God will bless them in your face.
Words carry a lot of weight.
The worst pain is the one you can’t see,
Burning tears that are mute and head bursting inner screams.
A pain that cuts you deep,
Puts your soul on bed rest and prevents your mind from sleep.
The brightest decisions comes from the darkest times.
The most beautiful diamonds come from the deadliest and darkest mines.
So sweet is bitter
And bitter is bleak.
Unique indifference leaves all weak but the growth is all we need.
Ease my mind
Patience takes time
But does it have to move so slow. Looking behind me only reopens the wounds that have tortured my soul.
Another morning full of memories reaped while the present time sows newer needs.
Inhaling the past and exhaling the newest pleads.
Today brings the beginning of another you.
In the grey zone, its time I walk the path of few.
Once upon a dream I fell towards heavens gate. They opened wide , a voice said calmly “your family awaits..” As soon as I stepped forward The light shines so bright, They stood so far up the steps I think only one flight, but They told me to turn back Its not my time Without another word I fell through the sky Feeling the cold night weightless cries A night of drifts off Was it a dream or in my mind. Peering out the window my mind slips on what ifs. Up in the sky the stars are so bright , making me feel uplift Just for the night I think Just for tonight.
The truth is dangerous to some, it can hurt you physically without ever laying a finger.
Bruising your ego and cutting your heart.
Its easy to get pulled into despair and insecurities.
But reach out and find yourself through the blurr of smoke filled rooms.
Limit the words of others who will bring you doom.
Those who only wish bad on you will tear into your fears.
So keep the deceiving away from you so that your thoughts may be clear.
Life is what you make it,
And your choices depend on the company you keep.
Limit the negative and gain positivity.
It takes less to learn and more to grow from your teachings.
People say more by saying nothing. Its their energy that gives them away. The tone they have whenever they do speak, their smiles, their gaze. The glow in their eyes, or their colorful aura boldly ablaze. People say more through a hug or a shoulder pat. You can tell a story just by observing another’s energy towards all Tact’s. Whether they’re really living their truth or faking a smile. It always comes out after a while. Faith be moved when God touches down. Feeling the soul of many around.
I walk in the shadows unafraid With nothing to want, but better days. Confused by the constant veiled ways of my peers, they seem to always go astray. Maybe I’m the victor and they’re the fallen. Years pass by me, dull moments time has stolen. My wings grip me so, is it I that need comfort? Forever reminding myself that others come first, But should I be so selfless for those who are splashing Mudd puddles on my pants. There is nothing water can’t cleanse, yet where should I walk when there is more than one end?
In the mist of it all Nothing shall do you harm. Soul glowing in your eyes, A green overlay that shields your cries. Only protection is God , A beautiful Sunday that helps to relax your mind. Marley singin’ in the shadows about jammin in the name… Emotional shelter beneath all things. Zion is the next destination painted boldly in the frame.
Unlimited is the lies of the world,filled with close minded fools . Those who believe only what they can see. As if their other senses are just there for basic needs. Common sense flees most minds, leaving the clueless like sheep. Minds unconscious, following the wolves lead. Those who can’t think for their selves fall into trances unseen. Only their soul seems to bleed the need for relief. Protect your mind what’s seen can’t be unseen. A photo tells a thousands words of what it wants you to think. Look beyond the Forrest and you’ll see trees. Look beneath the ocean water and you’ll see another world beautiful beyond belief. Energy unbottles, the miracles of life. So positive or negative is a choice of strive. Its always more to learn, so perceive the truth. Widen your view and believe in you.
For ever cleaning up the pavement, Pain stricken hands scrubbing in anguish. Living in the motion is the way it’s meant. At least for me , still I can’t help but think twice. Confused about what has become wrong just to make a inclination right . Exactly when do the pavement clear? When can I get up from here? Seeing the veil that others wear, makes it impossible to view mine without fear.
Come night! rest upon my shoulders, And guide me through the Sandman’s quarters. Come night!! Bring the stars and moon To shine their light into my shadowed filled room. Come night!!! Help me rest my mind Soundless prayers on clasped hands, soft whispers from behind. Come night!!!! So I can rest, though I’ve had many sleepless nights I confess. Come night!!!!! Burning eyelids, I close my eyes and listen to the sounds of night. Ignoring the eerie spite Day comes…. No sleep for me, Another resting night Another lost dream.
I saw you in my eyes, I felt your arms while I cried. I heard your words in my mind, telling me to keep on trying. When the world got heavy you shielded my soul. From the reign of the darkness the world exploits. Your smile so bright, it dimmed the stars. You’re never too far, never too far. Forever by my side, Forever on my mind. Granted is your protection, Unlimited is your love. Heavens knows no boundaries. Forever missed and loved.