If I told you the more you think you’re dying the faster you’ll die, how long would it take you to die?
If i asked you to draw a picture of what honesty looks like, would you know how to?
And if you didn’t would that make you dishonest?
A picture says a thousands words you’re not even thinking, contrary to popular beliefs.
Just as your body screams at you, telling you what you don’t need.
Like birds living in a tree, with a nest made of sticks and dry leaves.
We could all look within our own beliefs, and find that doubt we hide with ease.
But will we?!
Never allow people to treat you like shit, they’ll get use to it and forever walk all over you, wiping their feet clean.
I will never forget the treatment I get from the hateful, bitter, and deceitful people in my life.
You never truly know what a person is going through daily.Trying your best to leave a bad situation, no matter what it takes, even contemplating the value of your own life.
You ask yourself truly do I deserve this?!
What did I do to deserve this?!
Gods test will truly destroy your mental state and leave you with no choice, but to change.
Truly tired of pretending everything is alright, yet can’t help but to spread the love that’s void in my life.
I give what’s never gave, forever a giver.
Always remember to smile through the bull people.
Be honest heart.
Be fair mind.
Be true words.
Its never enough, no matter what.
Even the finish is a new beginning.
Today brings tomorrow’s envy.
The end is always empty, the start is always full.
Like a gas filled car going no where, stopping only when you need more fuel.
What is this all for?
What is our destined fate?
I now ask a million questions so either I’m on time or too late.
You discuss my failures loud,
my attempt at being more than what I was and am now.
It changed me.
You discussed me…
Laughed at me for trying, when you remained the same.
I attempted to dream, you stayed the same…
You discussed me.
When I succeeded,
you told all about my past, ridiculing my success and trying to dim my path.
I laugh in the face of my enemy, and feed them passion fruit.
For their life has been lived through me.
I couldn’t imagine what it would be like to be you.
Just as you couldn’t imagine what it would be like to be me.
To live the life you see.
Who/what is the first thing you think of when you hear the words:
What do you think of?
What memory crosses your mind?
My mind seems to have a clutter of things that come forward for each.
A lesson learned from all of the words, to prevent a repeat, I continuously teach.
You are only half of what you preach and none of what they say.
Treat all better than they treat you, better than you want to be treated. I know the saying is a little more like ‘ treat others the way you want to be treated, ‘ but no ones knows what they really want.
Everyone just knows what they don’t want.
Whether this list of con’s come from experience, observation, or just wishful thinking.
Your expectations consist of a forever growing list of dislikes.
A person can never truly give you what’s needed and wanted when you don’t know the difference between what you desire and what your soul necessitates.
Instead of showing others your pet peeves, dislikes, or past emotional scars.
Show them your desires without the list of cons, let them learn who you are and widen your view.
They can learn from you as well as you can learn from them.
For you forever change day to day, and things are always different with different people.
The turn out is only the same when you treat them the same way you treat others before them.
And what you have tolerated and accepted as well.
If you tell them all the negative things you clung to, sooner or later they’ll give you what you expect.
Because that’s all they know.
Its like telling a person you hate warm water so they give you ice water.
If you had not told them that, you would have been given the varieties of wine, juice, soda, coffee, plus more.
But now that person doesn’t have to spoil you , learn your desires, or help you to accumulate more desires.
Why would they do that when you told them you like ice water?
No you never said that you only like water, but you only told them you hate warm water. You limited them, so instead of growing with you, they’re feeding your past and not your present.
I’m not talking about desiring something to drink, though you’re probably thirsty now lol, I’m figuratively speaking.
You limit your growth when you remain in the same thought process.
Its not always other people, sometimes its you.
I used to fear the rain, would always run to my moms room or hide beneath my covers. Now it soothes my spirit and relaxes my mood.
I used to love parties & the movies, now I prefer something a little more intimate or chaotic like a theme park.
Point being your taste changes like fine wine throughout the years.
Don’t have high expectations for a person you gave a list of rules too.
Ask your self how will they know what you like if , your cons are longer than your pros.
Its like constantly making sure you don’t step on someone’s feet while dancing.
You can’t truly enjoy the moment , or feel their heat mold against yours.
Hell you can’t even hear the music.
You’re putting their focus on the negatives. So all they know is negatives. Which builds your connection on a negativity.
Learn to let go, move on and grow.
Allow others to love, learn, and see you with a different view.
Your past was a lesson not to be repeated.
We must learn our favorites, attain more likes, retry things we hate, conquer our fears, and love sincerely.
Tough love, and food for thought.
Be loved all,
Be strong all,
Peace & Love Always
Penrose staircase paradox, leading up only to go back down.
Never ending, reaching the top only to reach the bottom ground.
They say you’re closer than you were yesterday, then why do I feel further away?!
Walking backwards with my shoe strings untied, why bother to take a break?!
Living in an illusion where the day becomes night and the night brings day.
Hopelessly sleeping the day away.
A night owl to the darkness, forever I lie awake.
Can’t kill the time so I rather watch it and wait.